Ages ago the prophet Elijah came face-to-face with one of the biggest challenges of “faith work” – that it doesn’t lend itself to empirical verification.
Think about it: in the biggest showdown of his career – the contest with Jezebel’s prophets of Ba’al – he’d put them to shame. After taunting them over their inability to evoke a response from their oh-so tangible gods, he’d drenched his sacrifice with water and stood back so Yahweh could send down a fire that not only consumed the sacrifice per se, but licked up the water and atomized the stone altar upon which it had all been arrayed.
You’d think this would suffice for validation of one’s ministry, wouldn’t you? But it didn’t. Elijah retreated to the wilderness where he struggled with a depressive episode of epic proportions. I can only imagine what he might have thought had occurred out there in field with those Ba’alian prophets. Perhaps it went something like this: “Yeah…there’s nothing to their gods, but how do I know there’s anything to mine? Maybe I just got lucky. It was probably nothing more than a random bolt of lightning.”
The point is this: there’s nothing about faith that’s empirically verifiable – whether in the affirmative OR in the negative – you can neither prove, nor disprove religion.
This isn’t news, of course, but it’s important. Consider this little gem, “God called me to ministry.” Is it true? Perhaps…. The fact is, lots of claims have been made in the name of God, and I’d vouchsafe that not all of them make God proud. Still, nearly every clergyperson I know (including yours truly) claims to be have been called by God into pastoral work. Does that claim make it so?
In chapter 20 of TO&WC Martin Copenhaver takes on the oh-so-common problem of approval craving in the pastoral office.
My suspicion runs something like this – we crave approval because we aren’t so sure what we’re about. We cover our insecurities with pious assertions (“This is God’s work I’m about [and nuts to anyone who takes issue with me]), or else we leave God entirely out of the equation and seek all our validation from those we are ostensibly called to lead.
This sword (the lack of objective criteria by which to surely measure our alignment with God’s will) cuts two ways, and both cuts can be bad: those who boldly assert having their own private and certain Word from God make themselves unaccountable to other individuals and communities – certainly a perilous state. But it is equally possible to despair of any certitude in this work and succumb to either depression, or else to a servile devotion to whatever the people want. In that case, the pastor becomes either a “quivering mass of availability” or else a craven manipulator of the parish in which their affirmation becomes god (and all sense of appropriate boundaries gets lost).
Is it hopeless? Is there no way by which to helpfully assess one’s faithfulness? If it is not right either to arrogantly and single-handedly claim access to the infallible mind of God, but neither appropriate to grant the parish total right to assess one’s faithfulness – what is one to do?
Ah….the challenge of living in the tension between the poles of seductive extreme!
The fact is (it seems to me) we need both. We need a relationship with God that gives us focus and direction for the living of each day, but we also need to hear the voice of the community and its word of critique and correction. Either one in the absence of the other is likely to lead to error. Only as we hold both in faithful tension are we able to maximize the possibility for effective ministerial leadership.
“I believe. Help me in my unbelief.”
Rich Pleva